Thursday, September 13, 2012

Setting Priorities

I am the kind of person who would rather give up something i want to make someone else happy.  I always feel guilty thinking of myself first, as if I'm being selfish, and I think that is something alot of women in particular deal with.  We want to be nurturing and caring and thoughtful, but end up leaving ourselves behind. 

Ok, so I mentioned in my first post that Weight Watchers gave me the most success when it came to getting healthier.  When I was on a walk with my mom a few days ago, we were chatting about me trying to lose weight and out of nowhere she offered to pay for 2 months of WW if I wanted to join again.  I was surprised and excited but felt bad becasuse WW isn't cheap and I didnt want to take so much from her.  BUT, she is my mother and she loves me and wants me to succeed.  She's giving me an opportunity I couldn't give myslef and if she feels I deserve it, than I should feel like I deserve it.

So, today I will be heading to my local WW and joining again.  I'm excited and nervous.  I feel like I have additional motivation now to do well with my mom's support.

Monday, September 10, 2012

Day 1

So today is the first official day, where I am going to start tracking my food and 'excersize' (i don't like that word), its like the word 'diet', soo boring and makes me want to run away.  From now on, we'll call exercising... BATTLE TRAINING!  Like you're training to survive the Hunger Games!  Definitely more exciting :3

I live a primarily sedentary lifestyle, mostly spent on my laptop.  I know eating healthy is important, but it isn't enough.  This adventure is about losing weight and becoming healthy; and no adventure can be sought out sitting on ones ass.  Soooo, for the past 2 weeks, I've been walking for an hour to 90 minutes every single day.  At first it felt really lame, but I have enlisted both my mom and boyfriend as allies so I always have a walking buddy! 

Sunday, September 9, 2012

And so it begins...

Hello there stranga!  I welcome you to my tiny adventure; my quest to health and fitness and looking damn cute!  To not make this all formal and awkward, let me introduce myself :3

My name is Tatiana and I am 24 yr old girl who likes food.. alot!  Me and food aren't friends like you and I though, its more of a love hate relationship that's become unhealthy.  I assume, and I may be wrong, that if you are reading this, than food isn't your bff either.  So today, I am starting an adventure (because the words diet and life-style change make me sad) to mend my friendship with food so we can be super awesome mega pals! I'm ready!

Now, like any epic saga, a prelude is necessary.
I have had problems with my weight for most of my life.  I am a 24 yr old girl, standing at 4'9"... I'm already tiny height wise, I'd like to continue the trend width wise as well lol!  I, much like every other dieter on Earth, have tried every diet fad I've had the misfortune of coming across and failed on 95%.  In fact, the only diet I've ever been on that worked was Weight Watchers, but alas I am a college student working part-time in retail, hence I'm broke as a joke and can't support the monthly cost.  I have tried using my experience from WW on my own, but what really worked for me was having that community and support of others going through the same process.  While I was going, I lost 20 lbs!  Holy cheezits!  That's alot!  Ugh, I was so proud of myself but still felt fat... and now, almost a year later, i have gained all 20 lbs back and feel so disappointed in myself.  And that is what led me here.

So lets talk numbers..
Currently I weight 139 lbs.  Lowest weight in recent history was 117 (we will meet again!)